
After the initial shock of being pregnant passed, Brandon and I debated on when to tell our parents and how the best way to break the news would be. Finally, we realized that there was NO good way of telling them but it had to be done soon. The day I found out, I immediately called my dad and told him right off the bat. Its weird because most daughters normally tell their mom all the girly stuff about the body and the major things in life like sex, pregnancy, etc. Well, I am totally different. I have always been able to talk to my dad about EVERYTHING. So when I found out I was pregnant, I called my dad and said "Daddy, are you busy?" He was like "no, whats going on?" I told him that I needed him to sit down if he wasn't already because I had something serious to tell him. When I told him, he didn't freak out..he just asked me how sure I was and a few more questions. He accepted it and told me whatever decision we decided, he stood behind me and Brandon. Hearing that was SO comforting, and Im glad I had his support. If only telling the rest of the parents were that easy, this would have been a breeze!!!
We decided to tell Brandon's parents first. I was suppose to "follow" Brandon's lead. REALLY? You can only imagine how that went right? Well it didn't go as planned. All afternoon, ironically people around his Dad were talking about grandchildren this and grandchildren that. The topic of conversation through the late afternoon and early night involved babies. I remember we were sitting at the kitchen table and Brandon had barely eaten a thing. He cooked steaks on the grill, baked potatoes, green beans, and bar-b-que bread with cheese (my favorite meal by the way) and neither one of us could eat. Brandon's mom had brought up a random subject about selling my scrubs on Craigslist, and Brandon's dad chimes in with a question about my future job and how you can't be around embalming fluid when you're pregnant. Ms. Pam says "well, she doesn't have to worry about that for a while because they aren't having any babies anytime soon." Neither me nor Brandon could say a word and all we could do was keep our heads down. Finally, Brandon says..."well.........................." and just stops. I could have kicked him for not finishing his sentence. Like I said earlier "following his lead" didn't go as planned. I then said, Im pregnant..Im going on 6 weeks. No one in the house said a word, it was a time where you could hear crickets chirping outside in the field next to the house. Ms. Pam started crying, Mr. Gary was shocked, and Brandon's brother Blake started screaming and saying he was going to be an uncle! I continued eating my steak with Mr. Gary as Brandon went outside to talk to his mama. They were outside for what seemed like 30 mins...finally she came in and hugged me and we both cried. It was a huge relief to get it off of our chests, but in the back of our minds, we knew we had to tell my mom now. That was going to be the hard part for me.
I called mom as we were driving over there, and I told her that we were stopping by and that we needed to talk to her. She was like okay, Im awake..come on. Little did she know, her life was about to change in about 5 mins. As we got to the house, and went inside..my heart was racing and I knew that if I coughed one good time, my heart would have shot through my mouth. I was SO nervous. There weren't any easier way of telling her than another so I just blurted it out. "Im pregnant" She started immediately crying and screaming at me and just completely in total shock. Every way she acted was every way I imagined. It wasn't the fact that I was 21 years old with no degree, no husband or anything, it was the fact that I'M pregnant. She knows how hard it's going to be and I do too, she was just looking out for me. I knew that she would get over the initial shock eventually and it would get better, and it did. Thank goooodness!
We both know that things weren't suppose to happen this way. We know that we were suppose to be finished with school, and in our careers and married. Brandon is a police officer for Kinston so technically he has his career but he is in school just like me. So things were still suppose to fall a different way than this. I honestly never wanted children. Atleast I said that forever. I didn't grow up and say "ohh, I want 2 children or 3 children." I always said I didn't want a single one. I know that children are blessings and I am counting that blessing as I speak. We are young and we weren't ready for this, but it's now time to grow up and accept it because we are going to be parents in 7 months. : )
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