On Saturday, July 17th 2010, I woke up with a feeling that only a new mother would have. I've always heard that if you are pregnant, you'll know it one way or another. I remember leaving the house and getting some lunch that day. Brandon was working night shift so he was in bed and no where near me at the time. I drove to the mall and sat in the parking lot for what seemed like hours, debating on going into the store. I finally went into the Dollar General behind the Vernon Park Mall and bought the cheap-o pregnancy test and said "well, a test is a test..we'll see what happens." My very good friend Kara was working that day at the US Cellular in the mall, so I went straight over there and sat down at her desk and said..."I think Im pregnant and I bought a test." She told me to go to the back and take it, so I did. It immediately showed two lines which meant positive. I didn't cry, I didn't make a scene...I slowly walked out to Kara and said "Im pregnant." She was like "yeah right, stop lying." I said "no, I wish I was lying, go look." She walked to the bathroom in the back and said "wow, your pregnant!" She then instructed me to go get a "real" test from the Rite-Aid, so I did and sure enough, that one came back positive as well. I ended up taking two more that day and nothing changed. The thoughts that were going through my head were crazy! I asked so many questions to myself and my mind was spaced out that whole night. I had decided to wait and tell Brandon once he got off work Monday morning so his mind wouldn't be stuck on this when it needed to be focused on his job.
Well, I woke up Sunday morning and had some time to think about it all over again. At this point in time, I was crying so hard. It hit me that I had to tell Brandon and I couldn't wait any longer. So many emotions were running through me and so many thoughts went through my head. I was so afraid of how he was going to react. I remember he was sleeping around lunch time and I started crying so hard, it woke him up. He was like "baby, what is wrong with you?" I said "Brandon, I need to talk to you. It's serious." He was like "okay, well stop crying, what's going on?" I said "Im pregnant" and he didn't say anything. About ten seconds later, he said "are you sure?" and I said "yeah Im sure, 4 for 4 tests were positive." He was like "okay, well what do you want to do?" and I told him I didnt want to give the baby up, this happened for a reason. From that moment on, he has been by my side through every single thing. I couldn't ask for a better person to share this time of our lives with. So Brandon, if you read this, I LOVE YOU and thank you for all you do!
I'll be posting more soon! :)
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